A Manifesto for a Catalyst

A Dream, A Crazy Idea, An Insane Hypothesis...A Plan. 

Conceived of a dream, I have a "Crazy Idea." (If you know me, you know this.)

And borne of that conception: "An Insane Hypothesis."

My dream...that the world would change.

My crazy idea...that the world actually COULD change.

My "Insane Hypothesis"...(I've been out-on-a-limb before...but now I'm out there where the branches get really thin...and I'm okay with that!)...

Ready?

Okay.

I Believe We Can See Significant, Discernible World Change...Within Five Years!

That's right.

I said it...

Five Years.

Having the dream was great. 

Hope comes from dreams.

I've had hope.

That dream, that hope, lead me to my crazy idea...

This idea took my dream, and created this frustrating stirring.

The kind that keeps you up at night.

The kind that makes you write words, and poems, 

And say crazy things...

Crazy, crazy things.

And those crazy ideas lead to an insane hypothesis.

The kind that makes people question your lucidity.

But it can also lead to lots of ambiguity.

Dreams...

And ideas...

And even hypothesis...

But these, without some direction...

...just makes you feel as though you've crossed the rail and taken a flying leap into a sea of ambiguity.

And people don't deal well with ambiguity.

But, after a few years of soaking up all sorts of potentialities in that ambiguity...

I have emerged.

I have emerged...dangerous.

See, not only am I a dreamer.

I'm a dreamer...

With a plan.

So, let me give this hypothesis again...   

I BELIEVE WE CAN SEE SIGNIFICANT, DISCERNIBLE WORLD CHANGE...WITHIN FIVE YEARS!

(And my five year estimate...well that's a conservative estimate. Huh! Huh! The conservative estimate of a crazy dreamer! That made me laugh.)

And it goes something like this: if the Church would makes some deliberate changes...the sheer shock of those changes* would propel the world into obvious change.

      *Changes. If the world found us obviously and overwhelmingly fulfilled in life; and passionate, loving and non-judgmental.

For The World To Change The Church Has To Change.

Yep. 

The CHURCH has to change.  

To hear what we've said, for at least the past half millenium or so, we've been waiting for the world to change...

We've been laying this obligation at the world's feet.

But, since way back in the OT, it's been our responsibility. (Go read 2 Chronicles 7:14)

For the world to change, the church has to change...on purpose.  

We all want to see the world change. But it appears we hope this will happen by some kind of good-luck serendipity. 

Like world-change will happen accidentally...like getting T-boned by a Buick LeSabre.

(This made me laugh too. Like we're driving along...and BAM! "Dude! What just happened? Everyone alright? Wait...hey! The world just changed!!")

I'm a huge believer in prayer, and singing, and meeting, and talking...but at some point we've got to add to this, proactivity...

You know...if we want the world to change.

Yes, for the world to change...we've got to change. 

We've got to change.

We've got to change our approach to some things.  

Our approach to ourselves, and to the world, tends to be one of pandering to guilt and fear. 

But God's original plan for humanity wasn't fear...it wasn't guilt...it wasn't death...

It was life.

God's original plan for humanity was that we'd experience full life.

Adam and Eve Ruined the World's First Nudist Resort.

At the onset of creation...actually probably for eternity before this point in time...God wanted some simple things for humanity. 

He wanted unencumbered community. 

He wanted us to enjoy true community with each other. 

He wanted us to enjoy creation.

Well...he wanted us to enjoy, to realize, to live...full life. 

Full life. 

This is what Adam and Eve had...full life.

They were, both in reality and in metaphor, completely open and honest about who they were.

They hid nothing from themselves...

Nothing from each other...

Nothing from God.

They experienced no sense of shame or guilt or death.

They truly lived...

Feasting upon life itself... 

Their very sustenance being the tree of life.

Until one day, through fatal deception...turned their focus to a different kind of knowledge...

The knowledge of good and evil.

The knowledge of death.

(Have you ever thought about the fact that the only reason we understand comparing good and evil, is because we were lied to by Satan?!)

This was not, eh-hem, God's plan for humanity.

Since this commission of "original sin," the focus of the church (and religion in general has predominately focused on "good and evil"...and death...ever since.

Our vantage point of the church and the world has been from the leafy foliage of the tree of the knowledge of good and evil.

But it doesn't have to be this way. 

It shouldn't be this way.

This...was NOT the plan.

And someone came along to redeem the plan.

Someone came along to free us from our focus on death...

And return our focus to life. 

Jesus' express purpose for coming to earth was that we "may have life and have it to the full."

Jesus came to redeem us to life.

To carry us from the branches of death...

Back to dining from the plentiful fruit of the tree of life.

We must turn our focus back to LIFE...and away from death.

The Latin Phrase Application 

A huge part of this whole world-change thing, is, of course, reaching out.

But something has to happen first.

Before we can reach out...we must reach in.

We need to know what we really have...so we can really know what we have to give.

We must find our dream, our passion, our goal, our gifts and abilities.

You would think this would be amazingly simple.

I don't think so. 

I think, quite often, the person we know the least...is ourself.

Our hearts and brains are barraged with advice, compliments and complaints.

We're told what we should be, what we should do, what we should feel and how we should act...by everyone from birth to death.

We face such a wide variety of

emotions, whims and wild fantasies...that our true dream, goal and passion become smothered and unrecognizable.

We're told, that when we are pliable to God, our heart's desire will be granted.

But how do we even know what our heart truly wants? 

To start, we need to apply to ourselves, the account by Caesar, of an ancient battle in central Turkey:

"Veni. Vidi. Vici." 

I used to get so frustrated with the "OBVIOUS contradiction" (sarcasm inferred) of Jeremiah 17:9...

I used to read this verse...

Or have this verse quoted to me (EVERYTIME I mentioned my dream)...

And experience such overwhelming confusion...

 "Why would the Bible contain so many reference to 'heart's desire,' 'believing with our heart,' 'trusting with all our heart,' etc...when our heart was so deceptive?"

Until...I read the rest of the chapter. 

Then, I realized, finding the truth of who we are...

And what we're supposed to be doing...

And the direction we're supposed to be heading...

Takes some for real discipline...some real digging. 

I Came. I Saw. I Conquered.

I Came.

We must "come to ourselves." 

We have to place our trust in God and take some time to have our hearts examined. 

While it's great to take under advisement the compliments and critiques of others, we have to take time to come to ourselves find lies beneath the fancies and notions...to see the truth that exists.

To find our true passion.

We need to come to ourselves. 

I Saw. 

We must "see our giants."

We have to identify our habits and hinderances... The barriers that stand between where we are and where we need to be...

So often, we are our own Goliath (there should be a link here to a blog I once wrote) and the "giant" we must defeat...is us.

We need to see.

I Conquered.

We must "conquer ourselves."

We have to conquer those things we've seen. 

I have to conquer the things about me, that keep me, from being the me...I was created to be.

We need to conquer.

It takes discipline to find who we are...

And BE who we are.

But when we do...we find what provides us with a full life.

And when we find that passion, that goal, that dream, that thing that provides us with a fulfilled life...

We can then offer full life to others.

Yes...then.

Humans are plagued with this subconscious thinking: "If my life stinks, why shouldn't everyone's life stink?"

But if we enjoy life and are fulfilled...

We can offer joy and a full life to others.

And, you know what?

We have to avoid the lie of false-humility...

As it turns out...

You actually ARE WORTHY of living a fulfilled life.

In our attempt at humility, we often say we're not worthy...

That we don't deserve this full life we've been offered.

But we are worthy.

Why? Because Jesus died and rose again to make us worthy.

You want to be humble? Humble in honesty?

Honest humility is found in our realization that we've been made worthy, because Jesus made us worthy.

He made me worthy.

He paid for that with his life...with his death.

And this...makes me cry. 

(I had to stop and breathe here for a couple minutes.)

Now that we've started to find this full life...let's move.

Let's move out.

I've Got A Problem With The "Occupy" Movement...Prove Love.

The first part of this subset is laced with ignorance.

 Honestly. 

And this is nothing to do with the politics, demands, concerns of the Occupy movement. 

I've heard little bits and pieces of a couple of varied percentage points...

But I don't know much about them other than the fact that their obvious means to their end...

Is to, as their name suggests, occupy.

They apparently have some kind of loose organization...

They have some sort of hierarchy...

They assemble.

They sing.

They shout.

They spread ideals.

But...basically...they occupy.

They fill space.

And this really doesn't make a difference.

This doesn't really change.

How do I know?

Well, we've got several hundreds years of proof...

Occupying our pews...

Occupying our buildings...

Occupying our campuses...

It doesn't matter how righteous your cause...

If it's mostly conversation...

If it's mostly occupation...

It's mostly not going to change.

We need proactivity.

We need to Prove Love.

A few salient comments about love...from the Book.

The command of Christ, is to love. (John 13:34)

True theology, is to love. (1 John 4:7)

The proper response to sin, is to love. (1 Peter 4:8)

We've been called here to prove love...to provide life.

And love is actually pretty simple.

It's really, simply about treating people the way we want to be treated.

Have you ever been to a wedding, officiated by some sort of minister of the Christian faith?

Then you've probably heard Paul's famous discourse on love.

Everything in 1 Corinthians 13:4-8 deals with how "love" actively treats others.

And, if you think about it...it's how we, ourselves, want to be treated.

And that's what Jesus said sums up "the law and the prophets."

Love's a simple thing...really. 

And...love takes discipline (that's why Jesus said love is the proof of discipleship).

And...love takes dedication. 

When we have a full-life, we want to share full-life.

When we realize the joy of living a full-life...

When we find our true passion and calling...

And we live that...

We want to share that with others.

When we want to share that with others, we want to prove love to others.

When the world sees this change...

This change in our actions, our attitudes, our life...

When the world sees this change...

This change to proving love, as opposed to pointing out sin and providing  judgement...

My contention is...

When the world sees this change...

That change will be a catalyst...

Which will propel the world...

To Change.

Sign On The Dotted Line

I know I'm crazy.

I know this is a silly dream...

A crazy idea...

An insane hypothesis...

I know I'm crazy enough to believe this can happen.

I'm crazy enough to dream this...

I'm crazy enough to have this vision... 

And if I'm this crazy...

I'm going to ask you to be crazy too.

I'm going to ask you to be crazy enough...

To buy-in to this vision.

This dream.

This crazy idea.

This insane hypothesis.

I'm asking you to join me.

And, really...

What's the worst that could happen?

Really?

If we make these deliberate changes...

If we find and live a full life...

If we prove love, and offer full life to the world...

And the world ACTUALLY changes...

If, within five years, we ACTUALLY see significant, discernible world-change... 

AWESOME! 

Yay! (You know?)

But even if it doesn't...

Even if, within five years, we don't actually see significant, discerirnible world-change...

Guess what?

We've still learned who we are and the passion of our life.

We've still realized a "life to the full." 

We've still proven love to the world.

We've still shared this "life to the full" with the world.

And if we do that...

AWESOME!

Yay! (You know...)

In a little over a month, we find ourselves back in a very special time in the church calendar...

The season of Lent. 

Last year I had the idea of a "Lent Dent"...

I had the idea that, what if, in preparation for Resurrection...

Instead of a fast that focuses on us...

And what we're giving up...

What if we focused on others...

And what we can give to them.

I'm asking you to take the next month or so,

And begin this process of applying "Veni. Vidi. Vici." to yourself.

To begin the process of finding...

Your passion...

Your gift...

Your call...

Your purpose...

Your full life.

And starting (not ending, but starting) this Lent Season...

Prove Love.

Show Full Life.

Be a catalyst.

To change the world. 

If you know me, you know this...
I Love You!
Ollie Horne,
A Dreamer...with a plan.

A Poet, Unintentional

Rain-stained window pane,
And through it flannel clouds.
Road signs and power lines,
And the shadow of my doubt.
Real feel, wind chill,
But my heart's fire blazes.
Bow low and undergo,
A metamorphisis from curses to praises.
No more a metaphor,
This is the Presence of Divine.
Undeniable, I know You. 
Though,
I find you undefined. 
Daddy, son. Two, well...one.
And like a surrender to gravity's pull.
An open heart, words depart,
And my response? I am a poet, Unintentional.
 
 

Post-It Note

You drew a heart on a Post-it Note, and posted it on my heart.



The gentle thrill,



How your fingertips feel,



Pressing this proof firmly in place,



Tears race down my face,



And in my mirror's reflection I see,



No, no, no longer my inadequacy,



But now an identity,



You've lovingly bestowed upon, and brought forth in me.



It's like me...but not me,



It's like it's me...but a FREE...ME!



A simple heart on mine,



The two, in syncopated rhythm, beating intertwined.



The shaking created by the pounding,



A resurfacing, a resounding...



A dream, in a place where dreams cowered, formerly forbidden...



Uncovered, unearthed, undeniably now...unhidden!



A banishing of barreness, a resurrection, a resuming,



I'm intrigued by the flames' habitude of sustaining, while concurrently consuming!



Imposing hedges that stood between,



Myself, and the Unseen.



Indomitable, this passion surpasses,



A barrier...diminished to ashes.



This passion now knowing free reign,



These flames burn, untamed.



But in my ear,



A whispered fear,



It's certainly been displaced, erased, defaced...



And my finger reaches to my chest and I retrace.



Finding on the skin above pericardia,



An identifying mark,



Mark, what am I saying? No! It's ART!



Composed in ink, inexpungible,



Untouchable,



Undefiled it remains...the same,



Only now...more defined.



More recognizable, I find.



Not that transitory paper, but on my heart a brand, a tattoo...



Engraved upon me, but whose ink-filled needles' pain, you knew.



I've lost myself, but in the losing, I've discovered,



The reality of me, this true me, you've uncovered.



My heart is yours.

"I said, 'Give me the putter.'"

"Give me the putter."  
 
That's what Poppy said.
   
"Give me the putter."
   
An old man.
   
An occasional golfer.
   
And Poppy said...
   
"Give me the putter."
   
The putter.
   
I've been in this place of trying to find my fit in this thing we call "ministry" for something like 25 years.
   
I've tried being the youth pastor, planning events and being very cool around teens.
   
I've tried being the children's pastor, doing slap-stick comedy to minister to kids.
   
I've tried being the pastor, wise and future-seeing.
   
I've tried being the preacher, shouting and sweating and taking in deep breaths.
 
I've tried being the missionary, adventurous and self-denying. 
   
I've never really tried to be me.
 
All these attempts had aspects of being me, but being defined as such, just didn't fit.
 
These weren't all failures. 
 
They even had great successes!
 
They were used by my Daddy to build me up and teach me.
 
But being defined by any of these definitions, alone, just didn't fit. 
  
I tried to wear everybody elses stuff and, man, it just didn't fit.
   
I never really tried to be me.  
 
I tried to be what everybody else said I should be and, man, I just can't do it.
 
I never REALLY tried to be me. 
   
Give me the putter.
   
I knew my gifting, my talent, my strength had to do with collecting sentences and putting words together...but I tried to do everything else.
   
So much so that I lost sight of those gifts, and talents, and strengths.
   
Like a bearded, island-trapped man drifting away from a blood-stained volleyball...I was drifting away from what made me alive.
   
And I was glad to do it.  
 
I became so convinced that these things, about which I felt such passion, were in no way a modern-church marketable skill set.  
 
I was there for a long time.
   
It's funny how things work. When we start pushing away from the things we lived for, we eventually can't even see them anymore.
 
Eventually, we trade those faded dreams for something more substantial.
 
Something more marketable.
 
And once you've drifted that far from the things that make you feel alive, it's pretty hard to get them back.
 
And sometimes, it takes something like having your life fall apart, to bring those things back into view.
 
Give me the putter.
 
That kind of what happened to me. 
 
My dream, gifts, talents and myself...became separated by about 5000 miles...
 
And I lost everything.
 
I was broken, and I was angry.   
 
I was angry at the One who gave me this gift in the first place.
 
The One I claimed I was following, when I walked away from gifts...well, He brought me back.
 
Give me the putter.
 
I was down there. 
 
Somewhere down there where rock bottom is all you've got to stand on...
 
Where there's nothing left but echoing drips of water drops, and a voice.
 
A voice calling me up.
 
Down there, you realize something.
 
Give me the putter.
 
You realize you don't need alot...
 
You realize you just need what works.
 
What works for you.
 
When the only way to look is up, you tend to look up.
 
On that rough-solid pit floor...
 
I found my dream, my passion, my gift...again.
 
Poppy said, "Give me the putter."
 
So I started using my gift.
 
I started writing.
 
I started collecting sentences and pithy phrases.
 
And I used the tool I had.
 
I wrote.
 
I wrote about my burden.
 
My burden?
 
The state of the church.
 
I wrote about my passion.
 
My passion?
 
Changing the world.
 
Give me the putter.
 
I wrote.
 
And I wrote.
 
And I rewrote.
 
And I wadded up and tossed aside...
 
And I rewrote again.
 
I wrote on aircraft jump seats, and park benches.
 
I wrote in Starbucks and in hotel rooms.
 
I wrote while sitting next to the Coliseum, the Eiffel Tower, Buckingham Palace, Stephens Green, the Arch, and at Israel's Mediterranean Sea coast.
 
I wrote in Macbooks, iPads, smartphones, notebooks, memopads, napkins and the back of pre-departure reports.
 
I wrote in almost every major U.S. city...
 
And I wrote in Rome, Amsterdam, Mumbai, Zurich, Moscow, London, Frankfurt, Paris and Santiago.
 
And then, I sat in Santiago...
 
And I didn't write.
 
Nope. 
 
I didn't write. 
 
I doubted.
 
I looked at the plethora of mediums upon which I'd placed my words...
 
I looked at my words.
 
I looked at my sentences.
 
Sentences.
 
Not paragraphs.
 
Most of the books I've read, contain chapter after chapter of sentences put together in paragraphs.
 
I just had the sentences.
 
My collection of sentences.
 
And I doubted.
 
I was discouraged.
 
I self-deprecated.
 
I was dying.
 
I didn't want the putter.
 
I cried.
 
And I cried.
 
And I sat there and, cried.
 
And didn't want my gift.
 
I didn't want "Ollie's way of doing it."
 
But then, I wrote.
 
I wrote about the doubt.
 
I wrote about the fear.
 
I wrote about feeling the duplicity of being both a withered flower blossom and a skinned-knee skating failure.
 
I wrote about getting scooped up, loved on and believed in.
 
Yes.
 
Believed IN.
 
See, the one who gave me this gift, reminded me that he believed in the gifts he'd given me.
 
And he believed in me.
 
And I resolved, to believe in my gifts as well.
 
Resolved. 
 
Realized.
 
I realized a few things...
 
I realized I have a burden.
 
I realized I have a passion.
 
I realized I have a calling.
 
And, I realized I have a gift.
 
I realized, that for the first time in either twenty-five or forty-two years, these four converged into one dual action capsule: my dream and God's will.
 
Give me the putter.
 
And I hinged on a ledge of throwing it all away, because I doubted the gift, the tool entrusted to me to reach this end.
 
But then, in a search for a few pieces written over the last couple years, I read through a few former blog posts, and I decided this:
 
I like the way I write.
 
I get excited about my oxy-moronic phrases that don't quite fit.
 
I spend hours mulling over two words.
 
This is the gift I've been given.
 
Give me the putter.
 
I made a solemn vow. 
 
I vowed to my Daddy.
 
I vowed to my family.
 
I vowed to the Church.
 
I vowed to the world.
 
I will embrace this gift, this tool, and use it...
 
To lift my burden,
 
To indulge my passion,
 
To fulfill my calling and, 
 
To realize my dream.
 
I know it may not be the conventional tool.
 
I know it may not be the wisest tool.
 
I know it may not be the tool of theologians and scholars.
 
But, it's the one that fits.
 
That fits me.
 
Give me the putter.
 
I don't stand alone in my rebellion.
 
There was a destined-to-be-king, adolescent shepherd who stood with me.
 
When called upon for the simple task of defending his nation at war, he stood in my rebellion.
 
He used what he knew he could use.
 
The over-sized body armor owned by the king, didn't fit this kid.
 
I mean, it seemed wise to wear it...
 
But he rebelled.
 
And his rebellion kind of paid off.
 
You know that story.
 
But you may not know the other story.
 
It's a story about Poppy.
 
I didn't know Poppy well, you probably didn't know him at all.
 
But I sat in a mortuary's chapel yesterday.
 
At the culmination of a week of doubt, and deliverance.
 
Decision and determination.
 
A week of resolution to use the gift I've been given to fulfill the challenge of my calling.
 
I heard this story about another rebellion.
 
One of my best friends, Joe, stood behind a flag-draped casket at the front of a chapel.
 
He was recounting the life of a great man, his grandfather.
 
A sailor.
 
A daddy.
 
An encourager.
 
An admonisher.
 
A "Poppy."
 
By serendipity, one of the final stories resonated so deeply in my heart.
 
By Divine design, settled my resolve.
 
By a whisper from my Daddy, encouraged me to use the gift I've been given.
 
Joe told a story of his annual golf battle with his Poppy.
 
They played a course, better described as a cow pasture.
 
Poppy didn't own his own clubs, but used Joe's.
 
On the final hole, this old man was about 40 feet from the green's edge.  
 
And then, several more feet to the hole. 
 
Poppy looked at his grandson, Joe...
 
And said, "Give me the putter."
 
The incredulous, and golf-knowledgable, grandson rebuffed this request!
 
"Poppy! The putter?!"
 
Joe recommended more appropriate clubs. (I don't know golf.)
 
He recommended clubs that would work for such a shot.
 
Poppy said, "Give me the putter."
 
In half pity for Poppy, in half competitive foreknowledge of this impending win...
 
Joe relented. 
 
Poppy took hold of the putter, adjusted his stance, took aim at ball...
 
And swung.
 
Over ant-hills and patches of grass, onto the green and into the flag's pole, the ball travelled...
 
And fell...
 
Into the hole.
 
In amazed disbelief, Joe stood with his mouth open! 
 
"Wow! Poppy! Wow!"
 
In the midst of Joe's confoundment...
 
Poppy looked at his grandson...
 
And said,
 
"I said, 'Give me the putter.'"
 
Resolved.
 
Give me the putter.  
 
 
 
 
 
 

There are days...

There are days.

There are days when discouragement is almost all I know.

There are days.

There are days when all I want is to shrink into some background.

There are days.

There are days when yesterday's blossomed petal, flutters to the ground in grotesque, withered dryness.

There are days.

There are days when rains pound down and clouds loom in low oppression.

There are days.

There are days when whatever gifts have been bestowed upon me, seem now useless piles, bundled together and boxed for delivery to second-hand stores.

There are days.

There are days when dreams seem not only out of reach, but no longer worth dreaming.

There are days.

There are days when what was free flying skates, flowing like the wind, are now skinned-knees and tears on concrete.

There are days.

There days when I can't believe.

There are days.

There are days when I can no longer believe in me.

There are these days.

This is that day.

Today.

But, then.

What is that sound?

Today, I hear a sound.

Footsteps.

I hear footsteps running.

Feet pounding pavement.

Arms of insurmountable strength lift this wind-blown blossom.

Lips purse and blow a soothing breeze upon my aching knees.

And then kiss my furrowed brow.

A gentle thumb wipes away the tear on my dusty cheek.

You look deep in my eyes and remind me, "You can do this."

I'm having trouble believing in you, when you speak words that jet beyond my ears to settle into my heart, "I believe in you."

There are days when, my faith in you is waning.

But there are no days when you reciprocate.

There are days when I am lifted up.

There are days.

There are days when I must remember you put something in my heart.

There are days when I must remember you wired in me, this weirdness.

There are days when I must remember this quirky brain contains a gift.

There are days when you remind me...

You believe in me.

This is that day.

Like Jenny

It was his first time.

And he walked timidly down the aisle.
At each row he was again embraced by rejection.
"Taken!"
"Taken!"

Then a little hand patted a seat.
And a voice invited...
"You can sit here!"

She knew pain.
She knew betrayal.
She knew rejection.

She could've used that knowledge as a justification for bitterness.

Instead she used it for compassion.
For acceptance.
For love.

I want to be like Jenny.

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Unforgotten: The Gospel According to the Gummi Bears & Hearts Fun-Pack

It was a bag of chewy, red candy…
Packaged with a purpose: to beckon another to “be mine.”
The fun-sized package, in full holiday color, even down to the block of space for proclaiming love’s “to” and the commitment of “from.”
All the romantic colors of a day created for the observance of romance.
The colors of romance…
With the exception of one ostentatiously plain…
And overtly direct…
Order.
This order sat in stark contrast just under the blank space for “to” and “from.”
All caps.
Arial font.
Four words, designed to confer explicit instructions.
And the instructions jumped off the whimsical packaging, into my distracted brain.
Four words:
“USE A PERMANENT MARKER”
No punctuation. No room for error. No mistaking the command.
“USE A PERMANENT MARKER”

As if the designer of the packaging were demanding of its giver: “If you’re going to give these gummies to someone, and declare some type of affection for them…you had better MEAN IT”
Like it was saying…
Well—it was saying exactly what it was saying…
“Permanent.”
Permanent.

(I sighed here.)

Transitory.
I think that was the word.
I saw it once in an outline for a talk I was to give and was, of course, forced to look for its meaning.
(I like to know what words really mean, not just how they are used.)
Transitory.
In other words…
“Doesn’t last.”
Transitory means something that doesn’t last.
Something that doesn’t stand the test of time…
Something that is here today and—
Well—
Transitory…
180 degrees south of the word permanent…
Fading…
Passing…
Temporary.

And that’s how we view so much of life…
I’ve heard people say, “Everything came to PASS.”
And sadly…
Most believe it.
Most people believe that everything came to pass…
And nothing came to stay.
People, quite often, view most of life as being transitory.
Like trying to grasp hold of an uncontained gallon of water, is how most people view most of life…
How most people view relationships…
How many view love.
Not that people don’t try to hold onto love and relationships…
By in large, most people try desperately, vehemently to hang on to love and to make love work…but most, probably all, see love as something that can simply…
Simply be…
Transitory.

As though the request to “be mine” was made…

As though their name written in the blank under “to—“
And the requestor’s name was subsequently written under “from—“
The bears and hearts were delivered by hand and received…
The fanciful package was placed in the safe carrier of a book bag and carried home…
But in the process of the transfer…
While rubbing across the surface of spiral-bound notebook covers and pencil boxes…
The commitment of the romantic invitation…
Was erased from the plastic packaging…
As though the request was issued, but the instruction not heeded.
That in the haste of pre-Valentine’s shopping and school preparation, the four-word requirement wasn’t met and the temporal ink of a Crayola marker was used instead…
And the fading of the request meant the fading of the commitment made.

I think maybe, people see love; that people see dedication—as a thing that time and circumstances can simply fade away…
Parents divorce…and nurturing becomes weekend trips with half-siblings.
Someone says they see you just as a friend, and an entire social network sees your “status” change to “single.”
Three letters, BFF, turn to letters written in a yearbook, but not lived out through the passing of years.
The person who opens doors and welcomes you in…closes a door and leaves you jobless…
Your biggest fan breathes a final, painful breath…and now memories and photos are the closest thing you’ll ever have to the hug that always welcomed…
Because of the circumstances of life on terra firma…
We often see love…
We often see commitment…
We often see “remembering I’m alive,” as something that is…
At its best…
Transitory.

But the requirement written on the package of Gummi Bears & Hearts Valentine’s candy still stares starkly.
The four, simple words reminding of a commitment that was made…
A love that is anything but transitory…
A love and a devotion that is, indeed, written by someone, who truly understands…
Someone who truly fulfills the command made in this gospel, to:
“USE A PERMANENT MARKER.”
A person who requests you to be his…
And preemptively pays every price of requirement.

But, I mean, you know that story.
You’ve heard it…
You may have PRAYED it…
You may have “confessed” it…
But sometimes…
Sometimes…
Do you BUY it?

“USE A PERMANENT MARKER”

JESUS GOT A TATTOO.
(Oh snap…did I just type that?)

A pricking under the skin…
An intermetacarpal piercing…
And an indelible mark remains.
Indisputable.
Undeniable.
Unforgettable.

Jesus got a tattoo.
Yes, you did read that correctly.
Jesus.
Known as Master…
Creator…
King of kings…
The Son of Man…
The Son of God…
The only begotten…
The divider of time…
The Alpha…
The Omega…
The personification of all that is Divine…
Of all that is holy…
Him.
He climbed shamefully under-dressed…
To the seediest of establishments…
Spread out his hand…
And with a careful searching for the prescribed physical locality…
With full and fulfilled knowledge of Levitical Law…
Jesus…
Got a tattoo.
He had himself…
The temple of the Holy Spirit…
MARKED.
The spotless lamb, took upon his on flesh…
The most beautiful of blemishes.
He fulfilled the ancient folklore written centuries before.

And for eternity after…
He gazes upon that tattoo…
His commitment of ultimate love.
As his fingers trace the deep, dark outline of a name forever in its place…
And he…
REMEMBERS.
Even when the bearer of that name thinks they have been forgotten…
Even when the subject of that name feels unremembered.
Jesus stares loving, through tear-filled eyes at the name of his beloved…
The name written with such permanency,
That not even Heaven…
Or hell…
Or all the pain between the two…
Can ever remove.
More permanent than any Sharpie marker ink chemist could ever fathom.
And Jesus…
REMEMBERS.
He remembers a dedication…
A nurturing, abiding love…
More deep and more real and more undeniable than the love known by any mother for the baby for which they travailed…
And second by second…
Without fail…
He recommits to, and commemorates, the love for the subject of his proudly displayed tattoo…
His eternal adhering to the Gospel of the Gummi Bear wrapper is eternally fulfilled…
Each moment, as Jesus remembers the name eternally inscribed on the palm of his hand.
And the subject of this skin art…

The name forever written in this brutally beautiful tattoo?
Oh, that name?
Well that name in that tattoo…
Is yours.

“Can a mother forget the infant at her breast, walk away from the baby she bore? But even if mothers forget, I'd never forget you - never.
“Look, I've written your names on the backs of my hands.”
--Isaiah 49:15 & 16